Pressing Pause on the Remote Control

Sitting.
Watching the world:
busy, seductive, destructive, fun, nostalgic...
and then there's me:
pensive, NRG-etic, x-lr8-ed, confused, lonely, happy, still, d-e-s-t-r-o-y-e-d...

Is it really worth the wait?
To see everything and everyone move around you
so free, so happy, and so driven.
And feel alone and that life is on pause...
Can you answer me if it's really worth the wait?

If i'm in the way, i can just move...
...it's what i do.
Jumbled up in my confusion,
i can still see and feel something pulling me -> forward...
but why?

as if my tears can answer for me,
i wait again
for the next pull
and watch my life...
...pass me by...

will you stop and help?
help:
-me feel alive again
-see the light from this murky illusion
i want to...